Another song which makes me eat this world!

Jimmy Eat World - Big Casino



"Rock on young savior, don't give up your hopes"

I'm leaving my work...

Yeah... yesterday I took that decision.

I talked with my boss because I didn't feel well in my work.

She always shouts at me and she's complaining all the time. I don't want to hear her anymore.

She's really stupid.

She thinks that I'm leaving because I can't stand the work but I can do it perfectly.

I don't care about what she thinks.

The truth is that they think that young people are stupid, we can't complain and we are subordinated because we can't find anything better. She's wrong. I don't like to be a slave.

So that's all.

Today I'm stating at 6 pm and I'll work for three hours. But I know that I won't be out at 9 pm, I always finish later because the shop isn't closed at 9 pm.

Well... 13 days more and this will end.

I just have to wait... ^^

I'm trying to be positive because I'll still have a month more or less before I start my new year at the University, so I'll have rather time to relax and enjoy.

I'd like to thank Alisse and Juliean for reading me. I really enjoy and learn with their blogs and they're really amazing!

Have a nice Wednesday and enjoy!

Cherry

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WOW! Somebody reads my blog!

I felt really happy. It isn't such a big thing but I needed to be heard.

Thanks ;-)!

Cherry

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This is the story of my life...

Here I am again.

I've realized that it's difficult for me to find time for writing new posts.

I know that nobody cares really because nobody reads my blog but I don't mind, I write anyway.

It allows me to disconnect from my reality.

I don't know why but I have a strange feeling. The feeling of being lost, of having difficulties to know what exactly do with my life.

I often have this feeling during this season. When the summer arrives, I often have my mind free from the studies and that makes me think about my way of life.

I usually think about what I'm doing in my life, my objectives, my tops, my challenges...

I also think if my life is going the way I want or if I'm doing anything wrong.

I talked with my friends and my parents about my life.

My parents said to me that my life is going well because I'm studying something that I like allegedly, I have friends who love me and I can count on them, I have a boyfriend who really loves me and I have parents who love me above all.

My friends said that they envied me because I have a work, I have my parents and I have a boyfriend who really loves me. I don't have to pay anything because I live with my parents and they don't let me pay anything. They also help me with my money, studies and everything they can.

However, I feel a little lost. My mother says that this is because I have a lot of good things in my life and I don't valorate them. She also says that I usually tend to idealize situations, moments and people and when they aren't the way which they were supposed to be (as I thought) I get disappointed.

Yeah... That's true. I always idealize things, for example work and studies.

When I started my degree I thought that I'd be completely different from what it is. So I started to feel confused and I wanted to leave it.

When I started my work as shop assistant in a lingerie shop I also thought I'd be a great job but the truth is that it's hard and bad-paid.

Then I get very disappointed and I think that my life is a shit and I want to change some things. But finally I don't change them, I just let things happen. But I'm a person who needs to have control of her life, so when they happen I get nervous because I've got the feeling of losing control and that makes me feel really desperate.

Wow... Too many things here... I think that the cause by the which no one reads this blog is that this blog is a chaos.

My mind may be a chaos... But... how do you leave chaos and achieve peace?

Maybe I need a psychologist who tells me what to do to put a little of organization in my head.

LOL!

Being a teen is difficult. And even more if you are more mature than your folks of your generation.

My job partners say that I'm 18 but I have the mind of somebody aged 25.

How am I gonna enjoy my life if I have 25 years old in my head but I don't have the same responsabilities and obligations of that age...?

Well... Too many things for today.

That's all friends...

I hope you understand... (What am I saying? Nobody reads it... Nobody will care xD)

Enjoy your summer and your holidays!

Cherry

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Too much time has passed since I posted last time...

Well, here I'm again.

Things have changed a little since my last post.

I left my work as telemarketing employer and I spent my time studying for my exams, which, by the way, went well.

I passed all my subjects, except from History and Cultures of the EEUU. I'm sorry, I know that so many people from blogspot are from America and well... it's a little disappointing, I know!

Well... As I was saying, my job was too much tiring and desperate so I gave it up when I had only worked 5 days. So I was paid a misery...

However, it allowed me to use my time to study in order to pass my exams. It did work rather well so I feel happy because I only have to repeat one exam in September, so it's ok.

When I finished them I started to look for a job again and I applied for different jobs near my University with the idea of working 20 hours per week to be able to study and work at the same time.

I wanted to do both things because I want to earn money and save something, which will allow me to travel or buy a car, for example.

One of the shops for whom I applied, called me and they interviewed me.

But I couldn't start working because I had a wedding in Sevilla and I had to be away for a week so it was impossible for me to start working inmediately.

However, they called me again and this morning I did a day of test (which I passed) and I'm starting tomorrow my new job.

I'm not very well-paid but... What can I do? It's difficult to find a good job with good working hours and a good salary... So I can't complain.

Well, the fact is that I have a job, I think I'll be able to combine work and studies and I'll have some money which I'll spend going out and I'll save for my future expenses and some other whims.

So... How are holidays going? I'm trying to take them the better I can. It's complicated because I had so many things to do but things are going on.

I'd have liked to visit San Francisco this September in order to practise and improve my English but... my condition now doesn't make it easy so... Maybe the next year?

I don't know, but I have one thing for sure: Before I finish my degree, I'll visit it.

I'll be really happy and satisfied if I do it, so... LET'S SAVE SOME MONEY ;-)

Have a nice holidays and... ENJOY!

Lotta kisses.

Cherry

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