Carrying on...

Here I go again…

Today has been a better day despite I had a test this morning.

I think it went well.

Every day I am less motivated to study. Every day I do less and less.

It’s hard for me to concentrate and to work. It’s also hard to open a book and to make an outline or a summary.

It’s hard for me to move, to get out and to go away.

I’m tired…

However, I try to be positive. At least I’m trying it so today.

In these last days I’ve been thinking about growing.

When I was a child, I used to believe that being old was cool. I wanted to grow and I wanted to be a teenager.

Now that I’m eighteen, I’ve realised that growing is not as cool as I thought.

Being an adult requires responsibility and not much time for having fun.

I know I can’t do anything to change it, that’s all.

I’d like to have eighteen years until I died. What a crazy desire!

I suppose that being an adult has some advantages too, as getting married or being mother. But is shocking for me to understand that all in which I’ve believed during years is not what it seemed.

My mother says that I’ve got the Peter Pan’s syndrome. When I hear her saying it, it’s impossible for me to contain my laugh, but I’m starting to think that she’s right.

Maybe I don’t want to grow, maybe I want to stay this way.

But time runs, you can’t stop it.

So, what can I do? I think that the answer is easy to say, but difficult to put it in practice: Enjoy your life.

When I say this, I don’t mean to live a crazy live as a “carpe diem”, without caring, without assuming responsibilities, but living it the best way you can without forgetting that you can enjoy, you can have fun, you can do as many things as you want but you also have remember that you have obligations and duties.

What a complete analysis about life, isn’t it?
Enjoy, friends!

Cherry

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